Disguising Truth with Poetry Lies and a Metalic Sharpie

I wrote a poem about self harming. I'm not a constant harmer, but when life just can't suck anymore, it's the only way to remind myself, that this is not just a nightmare. Wether or not this life is going anywhere, or not, it is a way for me to do more than just live life. Everday it seems like I'm just waking up, to fall back asleep in a matter of hours, so I may wake up once again. I hurt myself two days ago. Honestly-it didn't hurt at all, not until the anger washed off, and I had to sit in the dark, with myself, and scold my own being to doing this-to myself. I'm not really in this for some kind of attention, but I only have so many long sleeve shirts. Today, I wore a short sleeve, and used my pretty little silver sharpie to write down the bell schedual on my arm, so if someone looked over, it wouldn't look like a cat had, had a seizure on my arm, but just like I'm a lazy kid who doesn't have the nerve to check my assignment notebook for the times. And it isn't like I only write down the schedual when I've hurt myself, because I am a lazy kid who doesn't have the nerve to check my assignment notebook for the times, so it isn't like all of a sudden, I had sharpie all over me out of the blue. I just don't need teachers sending my to those offical counsilers that really just don't do anything, except interupt your story, and then reccomend you to a therapist, who will do exactly what they are supposed to do, but don't. I wrote a poem, and I want your feedback. Thanks a bunch.
~Ray

My Persciption

My perscription, baby

Is self infliction, maybe

My prediction, latley

It's my addiction, save me

Please save me

I'm ashamed of my self

When I

Break. The. Skin.

But I'm proud of myself

When I

Start. Scream-in'.

And when the get-go

Comes takin'

Your whole body

Be shakin'

And you're wallowed in yourslef

But when the tears

Dry. Up.

And the Break Down Is

Built. Back. Up

It's Time

To. Wake. Up

From Life's Nightmare

Life's A Nightmare

And There's No Waking

Unless You're Taking

My Perscription